abiding gratitude
dear readers. I have a new doctor on the west coast--I think of her as the love child of alternative medicine (she studied under Dr. Andrew Weil) and scorched earth medicining. She is working at my behest on everything from carefully chosen supplements (based on blood work rather than on my haphazard approach, which has been to add everything I read about with some relationship to cancer--the Chinese mushrooms, the ginger tonics, the beautifully named astragulus), to emotional healing (which involves a kind of meditation where I imagine fire flies flickering in all parts of my body--not that she told me to do that--it is just what comes up when I am very very quiet (and it must be remnants of several years in Clintonville, Ohio, as a young child, when we played outside at dusk amongst the twinkling fireflies and the diving, swooshing bats)), to a review of all of the relevant clinical trials both to make sure we aren't missing any opportunities now and for later, when the cancer m